I have a hard time getting inspired lately. Inspirationless. It’s terrible. I used to get inspired just by reading a random book, or watching a random movie, or even listening to a random song. You know, just something to get a kickstart on something else? These days, everything just seems so blah.

I was in town last Wednesday (crazy crowded. don’t know why people aren’t working these days) on my day off and nothing made my heart skip. NOTHING. And that’s close to impossible, because shopping is my life, damnit.

On a lighter note, the weather’s been niceeeeeee.

Everyone, fan or not, should catch Michael Jackson’s This Is It. There’s no denying that there are people cashing in on his death – but this movie, this might be the very last time that we can witness the full glamour of MJ on a scale like that. It was a little eerie, seeing MJ on screen again, so soon after his death. But this movie has given MJ life again – even if it was for only 111 minutes.

This Is It gave us a glimspe of  what could have been the biggest comeback act of all time. I can just imagine how explosive this concert would’ve been.

Many times during the movie, I wanted to stand up and applaud.

Even in death, the King of Pop entertains, awes and  surprises.

All my life, I’ve had people telling me that I seem to have an opinion about every damn thing. What’s wrong with having an opinion? There’s nothing wrong – it’s only wrong when it’s not something that people want to  hear.

So I’m keeping my mouth shut.

Many times, it’s not because I have nothing to say. Trust me when I say I have alot to say. But it’s not that I don’t care enough to speak, it’s knowing that saying these things will not change a thing. So what’s the point?

Now do you know why I like talking to strangers?

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I’m not a huge Apple fan – I dispise the fact that Apple uses hazardous material in the production of many of their products, all the while claiming their efforts to go Green.  But whatever. At least their Nano comes in pink.

I know I just slapped myself in the face by getting a nano, but this will be the only Apple product I’ll ever own. And only because it’s in pink.

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The weather is still so damn hot.

You mofos who are still denying that global warming and the greenhouse effect has got anything to do with human activities and that we’re as clean and pure and innocent as newborn babies, are clearly delusional. Stop living in your hole and take a look at what’s happenning around you. Go read up and watch some documentaries for God’s sake and spare us all from your ignorance.

I’ve been busy making money. Seriously. And then I was busy watching dramas and busy keeping out of the heat. I’m so tired I want to sleep for 24hours.

I’m not sure if it’s the heat but I’ve been getting way too easily irritated with (1) stupid people and (2) people having punctuality issues. I rant about them way too much and I am watching my karma meter drop to a new low. This is not good.

Is it normal to dislike someone so much that you literally lose your appetite upon seeing them? I guess that’s only good when you’re on a diet.

I recently saw a piece of clothing from a blogshop recommended by a friend which I quite liked. I dropped them a message asking for more measurements. No reply, even after a week. Then I decided, oh heck, it’s not expensive anyway, so I dropped them an email to confirm my order. 24 hours later – no invoice. I don’t know what to think. Is it negligence on their part, or do they just not want to do my business? If the invoice does not arrive by the next day, I’ll drop them an email to cancel the order. They can blacklist me for all I care because I will not be buying anything from them again. WTF. Is this how people do business these days?

I’m so tired it’s not even funny.

I know this may sound strange, and completely random but I like to address myself as Cherry Choo. My name, in full.

Not hello, I am Cherry but hello, I am Cherry Choo.

It’s windy tonight!

I think the weatherman (his name is Tim, by the way) heard my pleas!

I have some time, since I’m backing up stuff from my computer into my portable HDD because my computer’s been acting up alittle these days, I decide it’s better to be safe than sorry.  I’m having trouble deciding what’s important and what’s not in my computer so I reckon Project Backup is going to take abit of time.

Isn’t this alittle like life? You just want everything, good or bad. You want to keep them close to you because it means something. Well, it might not mean alot but it probably boils down to possession. Or that sense of familiarity.

I have computer problems my entire life. I’m not even sure why I’m working in this line.

Oh, and on a totally unrelated note, I’m also giving myself a pedicure at the same time.

It’s been obscenely warm today. It’s hot and stuffy and really humid. I’m not sure if this kind of weather is even legal.

The question I’ve been asked the most lately is why am I still not getting myself attached. I honestly …don’t know. It’s not a choice, really. Do I like being single? Well, I don’t think it’s that bad a thing being alone – at least I’m not bitter about it (yet? haha). Some people find it unbearable, but I think all this time alone has allowed me learn how to be independant – emotionally, above all. Of course I dream of having someone by my side but I won’t get into a relationship just for the sake of being in one.

I have trouble falling in love with a person. I know it takes time – I’ve heard that before, but sometimes …you just know it won’t work out, or at least the initial attraction wasn’t strong enough so it probably wouldn’t have lasted through anyway. I’m not even sure if there was any logic or explaination why I still hadn’t found someone yet.

Am I picky? Em. I think it’s perfectly normal to have expectations? I’m not delusional. I know it’s not possible to find someone who’s perfect. And I also know that when you meet the right someone, all those inperfections become perfect.

Maybe it’s all very simple. Maybe Cupid hates me, that should explain alot.

I think life should be more like the Class95.fm commercial – only hear (see) the good stuff!

Ok, backup done!

But before I go… these shoes. These to-die-for Alexander McQueen shoes. Are these even meant for walking?!?!?

I’m in a hurry to go to bed so I shall make this short.

I recently caught the movie Written By (再生號) starring the ever charismatic Lau Ching Wan (Tony).  Kelly Lin (Tony’s wife), Ching Ying-Kit (his son, Oscar) and Mia Yam (his daughter, Melody) plays his family who lost him in a tragic car accident who later tries to cope and overcome their grief by writing a story with an alternate ending. In Melody’s fantasy, Tony is now the lone survivor of the accident, rendered blind by the accident and lives with his maid Maria.

Tony, in Melody’s fantasy world, trying to cope with his grief as well, spins another story where his family survived the accident and none of them actually left.

In Melody’s story, one by one, they will later return to their blind father’s side in different forms. His wife, now a ghost pretends to be Maria who later dies in an accident. Oscar returns as a puppy and Melody is now Meng Po’s apprentice.

Anyways, it’s complicated. It’s not that hard to keep track but anyone with little patience will not be able to enjoy it as much. Some reviews say this was just  a big fat mess. Others say this was genius and special. I think this was pretty brilliant, considering there were so many levels of different worlds in this movie, and so many mixes of reality and fantasy – yet the core of the story never wavers.

The concept is terribly intriguing. It’s also something that’s very familiar. Because I remember writing a story myself when Grandma passed away. I was not by her bed when she left and that saddens me even now that I didn’t manage to say goodbye. In my story, she returned to say goodbye – she returned to tell me that in death, one’s spirit turn into stars and they miss us from somewhere far away.

Someone once said that besides God, a writer is the only other person that gets to decide the fate of another person – and everything else. Isn’t that amazing?

Ooookay. This turned out longer than expected. Goodnight.